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Royalty, Wife, Mummy, friend, teacher, student & fitness blogger

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January 2014

Everyone’s a bit off today… but things are improving !!

So, I’ve had to come up with a consequence for when the kids point out how far ahead they are in their day’s work compared to their siblings.  They all want to finish their work as quickly as possible, but quite often that leads to mistakes in work… resulting to taking even longer to finish when they have to re-do work.   The consequence is that they spend 15mins sitting on the couch.. which of course they don’t like as it extends their finish time for the day.

Thank the Lord for Google as it has come in very handy to remind me of things I haven’t done since Primary school.  Like common nouns vs. proper nouns, Roman numerals, prefixes and suffixes, etc etc etc.

We are all loving our morning devotions as they seem to stay focused on a particular bible story for a period of time.  It’s Isaac, Esau and Jacob at the mo.  Of course, I have loved Bible study for some time, but the kids really only know their daily devotions which are normally based around a different issue each evening.  To continue to delve into the same story over a period of time is always fascinating.  I’m sure they’re going to continue to love it.  I also love that we start each school day in Prayer together.  :0)

Terry is home on his RDO today so is experiencing his first day with us as a Homeschooling family.  I think he likes !!  :0)

We’re off to pick up a new car this arv, getting a train over to Michelton to pick it up, followed by dinner at the RSL for Terry’s Dad’s b’day.  :0)

Happy Friday everyone !!

Blessings !

A blog I totally could have written myself word for word !!

I found this blog entry … And seriously I could have written this word for word !!!! It screams my exact feelings and decisions !! The blog entry is written by Candace Cameron Bure……… I hope you enjoy reading it. 
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I am failing my family!

Sounds dramatic and it is. There is no catch. NO secondary line to soften it up and make light of it.

I am failing my children.

I’ve been doing what I thought was my best to raise my kids in a Christian home despite not being raised in one myself. ( ok, that last but doesn’t apply to me. ) My husband is a believer of 8 years but still trying to find himself as our spiritual leader. ( that’s my Husband right there… Love him to pieces). I try my best to be the example to them as a woman, wife, mother and role model, effortlessly falling short in some way every day while letting life get the better of me and my self control. 

Here’s where I’ve ended up:

I used to read my kids bible stories every night. I used to make games out of memorizing scripture. I used to test them on bible facts over dinner giving them prizes if they got the answers right. I used dance around the house singing worship songs and inviting them to play along with me. I used to buy them a bible study and devotional each year in hopes of them spending time with the Lord each morning on their own. I used to go over their questions and answers with them when they did. I used to pray individually with them each night before bed.

And somehow, as my kids became preteens and teenagers, (nearly) I’ve slacked. Attitudes seem to be the norm at this age, but the disrespect and disobedience shouldn’t be. Not if my kids know Christ. I don’t expect perfection and do expect mistakes, but what I don’t understand is the lack of humility and remorse. No, not by the way I’ve raised them… not by the things I’ve taught them for the last 13 years. Sure, there are always glimpses of goodness but they seem to be getting farther and fewer as time goes on. Since when did my child become “that kid” ?

My heart aches, my heart cries, my heart screams out….

Why? Where did I go wrong? Why isn’t this working out the way I thought it would? What’s the deal?

The deal?

Is me.

When did I stop reading the bible to my kids? When did I stop encouraging them along in their faith? When did I think their Christian school would be the influence? When did I let youth group become the teacher? When did I think that by letting them see me do my bible study every day it would be enough and not have to do one with them? When did I stop getting involved because I “hoped” they would take the lead on their own?

There’s never been an easy time to raise children or teenagers. With each decade comes new challenges that grandparents didn’t experience with their kids. Times are always changing but God’s word doesn’t. New solutions will arise but God’s word always stays the same. So we share, we pray, we encourage one another.

You have encouraged me.

I must be a teacher in my home. I must help my children read the word of God every day. How else will they know it? If they haven’t developed their own relationship with Christ at this point, it’s only going to get weaker as they get older. I mistook giving them independence for letting go of my responsibilities. The cycle stops here.

Praise be to God for showing me my failure. Praise be to God for giving me grace. Praise be to God for giving me the tools to raise Godly children. It’s all in the bible. We have to read it. We have to discuss it. We have to apply it. We have to live it.

DAILY.

DAILY.

DAILY.

You learn a new habit by repeating it day after day. How will my kids know God if I’m not teaching them every single day? There are no excuses. There is not a big enough event. There isn’t too much homework. There isn’t an important enough hockey game. There isn’t too little time in the day. There aren’t too many meetings. If I don’t fulfill this calling, I’m not only failing my family, but failing my responsibilities before God.

Thank you to all my blogger friends for encouraging me with your posts. Thank you for helping me recognize my faults and pointing me in the direction I need to go. I’m thankful for this community. I pray that you too will be encouraged to know you’re not alone. I pray that you’ll be nudged out of your comfort zone. Many of us well intentioned moms stumble along the way. Just remember that all the compliments from others doesn’t mean there aren’t places to improve. It’s easy to hide behind the best parts of life we choose to show each other on Facebook. I pray that like me, you too will be convicted to get off your seat and make no excuses to read the bible to your kids. Everyday.

Let’s hold each other accountable.

“We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised.” Hebrews 6:12

Blessings

School of Kingsley Day 2 !!

So here we sit yet again.  Not quite so early a start this morning.  8.30am instead of yesterdays 7am.  As well as wanting to try a different start time, it was also raining this morning which made it very easy to stay in bed until 7.30am.  We finished by 11.30am yesturday, so this start time still leaves us plenty of time in the day.

I’ve found a YouTube clip of 6hrs of classical music, so today we are enjoying that… well, to be honest, Jordan isn’t enjoying it so much, but I do know that it is very conducive to learning.  

I have had a minor struggle with James & Roman Numerals this morning.  Sometimes I find it frustrating explaining a thing that is so understood by me for so many years….  I often find myself thinking “Seriously…  why don’t you get this?”.  I forget that I most likely struggled with the concept just like he does.  I mean, I suppose it is confusing… Finding the main numeral of the symbol sequence and then ascertaining what certain symbols represent before and after that main numeral.  I had to source a info sheet to remind myself what the symbols were for 50, 100, 500 etc.  Terry & I lay in bed last night trying to remember them and neither of us could.  whoops !!  

Jordan has struggled a little with his maths this morning.. not so much with the work itself, but the amount of it for today.  I have suggested he put it aside and do some spelling for a while and then go back to it.  

Tyler-Jasmine is just floating through today, which is great.  I’m hoping to hear back from the fracture clinic today with an appt for t’row.  I’ll be super pleased (& so will she), if they X-ray her foot t’row and say all is good.. no more crutches.  :0)

I’m loving the bible content throughout the curriculum.  I have only dived into Bible study in a big & committed way in the last few years, and now LOVE  & CRAVE it each day, but for them to be learning this habit at this age is super fantastic !! It will be natural for them to seek biblical advice on all situations.  This is my prayer anyway. :0)

Okies Peeps…. Signing off for now !! 

blessings 

Fi  xox

 

Kids daily devotions !!

I found this fantastic resource and plan to do the daily devotion with the kids each morning prior to starting work.  We’ve only done two days so far, but it’s been really good.  It is interesting which keeps the kids listening.. and it appears to focus on a different character trait to work on in each one. 

Birthing something new !!

Today is our first day of schooling at home !! I am reading back over my prayer journal on 28th September last year when I wrote “God sure is working in mysterious ways of late. Funny that you often don’t see the change ahead creeping up, but once He knows you’re ready, able & willing… it’s BAM !”
& here we are today…. 4 months later to the day, sitting in our little schoolroom. For those that don’t know, we had to create this room. We had a wall put up to separate what was our formal lounge and dining.. so now we have a home theatre and a schoolroom. A carpenter neighbour did the framework for us and then I plasterer did the sheeting and finishing etc. Terry did the paining and he did a fantastic job !!
Anyway… moving on… Last night it was revealed to me the answer to a question that came up in a dream some months ago. I tried to read back through my journal and find the exact date and entry, but couldn’t. Nevertheless, I had a dream where I was in labour. It was one of those dreams where everything feels soooo realistic. I remember actually BEING IN PAIN during this dream… it felt EXACTLY.. and yes, to the severity of real labour pains, that I distinctly remember from the last time I experienced it, nearly 9yrs ago with james.
Of course, I asked God the following morning “Does this mean I’m going to have another baby?”. I don’t recall receiving any answer to this questions at that time, but I did go on to discuss my dream with a few close friends & family over the following days and I got a resounding response that No, I wasn’t going to have another baby, but God was going to be birthing something new within me. Of course, I wanted to know what this was going to be, but I did not receive an answer at that time.
I must admit, I ended up forgetting about that dream all-together until last night when it was revealed to me that t’row (now today) was the ‘arrival’ of the ‘new birth’. & Yes, looking back, there were labour pains, some bearable, some not so much, along the way. And, as in labour (well, my experiences anyway), there was rest and comfort from The Lord between each ‘pain’.
So, today we are here… enjoying our new arrival… while listening to Mozart I might add.
Blessings to you all !! xox

The end of a broken friendship

Weird title…. I mean if I friendship is broken…  it’s already ended right?  I guess it’s one of those interesting play on words.  However, this is what brings me to be up blogging at 2am on this Sunday night/Monday morning.  

So often of late I find myself feeling so alone, even while knowing beyond knowing that I am far from alone.  Not only do I have the Best Friend anyone could ever ask for in The Lord Jesus, I also have a fantastic Husband, who, while having his faults, tries every day to be the best he can be.  On top of that, I have a Mum who supports me, prays for me and has run me around for 12yrs since becoming a Mumma in 2001.  I now know that God is simply wanting me to rely on HIM and Him alone in all situations.  

There are fragments in my family…. fragments I don’t like, and fragments it seems I can do nothing to repair/put back together.  Have I taken some responsibility for some of this fragmenting?  Have I been repentant for my part?  Of course, but unfortunately, you can want to repair something until the cows come home, but if the other part of the equation isn’t interested… all you can do it leave it at The Cross !  

So, I need to do what I never thought I would to do with one of my family members….. brush the dust off my feet and walk away.  I’m praying God will give me the strength to do this and give me the on-going strength to continue in my decision.  I will lean heavily on this scripture to enable this to happen.  Isaiah 40:28-31  Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God,   the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint,   and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary,and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;   they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary;   they shall walk and not faint.

Funny thing is… I always thought I had such a great family…  We had our troubles of course, as all families do, but we always came back together when needed, no matter what may have gone down in recent times.  Now… it seems different. We’re not united anymore…. in any shape or form… and it’s sad… really really sad.   I shouldn’t really be surprised though… after Marriage, Family is the enemy’s favourite playground ….  but he won’t succeed here… although it may appear he has on the surface.  
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness,

OK…. so why is my blog entitled ‘the end of a broken friendship’ if I’m talking about my family?  Now, that is a very long story, but we’ll just paraphrase and say that schemes the enemy will use to attack you can be like a spiders web.  I am so thankful for growth though.  While times are often so hard, I am able to look back at myself 2yrs ago and hardly recognise myself.  Fully welcoming the Holy Spirit living within me has begun my transformation into the person God created me to be…  I have no idea what is ahead, but I know it’s going to be a blast…. and that God has a plan for me !! 

I am going to Colour with my favourite sister (Yes, I do only have one, but that’s not the point :0)) in March, and I simply cannot wait for what God has in store for me over those three days.  I have never been before and have often wanted to go, but I’m able to look back now and see that I wasn’t ready prior to now.  Even last year, when I had definitely made some steps towards a closer relationship with God, I still had influences in my life that God did not wish me to have.  It’s only now that a very negative influence has been removed fully that I can embrace EVERYTHING in my life.  Once again, I’ll lean on the above scriptures in order to keep this influence from infiltrating my life again.  Thank The Lord for the Godly women I have around me and supporting me.  I know it’s easily said, but I still pinch myself at how blessed I am by the ‘family’ I now have around me.  What did I do to deserve such blessings?  Well, I trusted in The Lord to give them to me.  

Sorry my blog itself was rather fragmented, but hey, it is now 2.30am….  I really should be sleeping…  Nighty night peeps !!  xox

 

 

God’s revelations !!

The last week or so has been filled with time with God where he has revealed many things to me… all, I believe, to help me jump the last tiny hurdle at the end of a difficult journey.
I am still amazed how He works at times. Many of the things revealed to me are things that I have not even thought about, let alone pondered on in the last 18months or so, but nevertheless, they are things that now make so much sense, put missing pieces in puzzles … and confirm God’s leading in my life over the last 2yrs.
This journey I speak (type) of has not been an easy one, but it was a necessary one. I have never experienced such spiritual growth & maturity in my life that I have in these past two years. A lot of times, things have not made sense at all…. I’ve seriously asked God at times “Are you sure about this?”…. and, funny that…. every time… His answer was a clear and resounding “YES”. (& I’m sure he also followed it up with “I really wish you were sure too.” :0)
Receiving these revelations of late feels like the final scrapbook page in an album. An album that has a lot of pain in it, but also a lot of forward momentum along my path with my Lord !

And for that reason, I in no way resent, or even think badly of any pages in that scrapbook! I will even look back over it at times, to remind me of God’s awesome timing, His amazing plans for me, His unwavering hand over my life… and His mind blowing Love for me !!!

xox

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