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ūüíö My dear Dad’s Eulogy ūüíö

Dad was born in Ipswich on 6th Dec 1949. He was the 5th child of Sam & Freda.  He is survived by two older brothers, and two older sisters.

When Dad was 2yrs old, Grandad, who was a Baptist minister, was called to a church in Nundah, so the family moved there.  Dad attended school in Nundah until Grandad was called to Gatton in Dad’s early teens.

On leaving school at 14, Dad began a carpentry apprenticeship.

Dad purchased his first car, a 1953 Zephyr, for 150 pounds and then later bought himself his prized mini.

In 1969, Dad joined the army where his training was at Singelton, NSW.  He then went onto an army camp on the Victorian border to complete a cooking course, and then furthered his skills by doing a bulk cooking course at Packapunya.  Dad was discharged from the army in 1971.

During his time in the army, Dad, dressed in full army uniform and standing on the steps of the Brisbane City Tabenacle, met his wife to be, Lyndal.

After marrying in 1971, my parents honeymooned at Maroochydoore.  Karen came along in 1974, followed by Fiona in 1976 and I arrived in 1979.

Mum & Dad had built a house up at the Sunshine Coast, which is where Jason was brought home from hospital, but due to Fiona’s eyesight and needing to attend a school for the blind, we moved to Bracken Ridge in 1979.

Dad sure showed off his carpentry skills in this house. It was a highset chamferboard house and Dad managed to add a large patio, then enclose that patio to make a rumpus room.  He also installed internal stairs, and then proceeded to move them to a different spot coz he changed his mind a year later.   He enclosed downstairs when he put the internal stairs in.

Prior to moving to Bracken Ridge, Dad was diagnosed with  chronic depression.  This gave Dad many struggles over the next ten years.

Due to a slump in the building trade, Dad secured a job as a bus driver.  He always said he loved being a bus driver, as long as he didn’t have to pick up any passengers. He then worked at the Railways but while he was there, applied for and got a job in the catering department of what was TAA.  We have great memories of Dad coming home with his jacket full of chocolate bars.

Dad was a keen videographer and captured many many hours of family fun times that we love to watch over and over.  Remembering in the 80s, a video camera was the size of a briefcase, he still dutifully carried it on his shoulder at each and every family gathering, recording every minute.

Dogs were always a big part of out family.  His motto was that you should never pay more than $50 for a dog.  We started with Cindy, followed by Fred, Cindy #2, Sheba, Bruce, Gemma & Coco, who is here with us today.

Dad also had a good few years of interest in breeding both Oscars and budgies.. being very successful at both.

1987 was a pivotal year for Dad as a meeting with one of the elders at his church resulted in a dramatic release from his depression.¬† He had gone to visit the elder on his motorbike and on his way back from the visit, threw his hands in the air and screamed ‚ÄúI‚Äôm free!‚ÄĚ

I‚Äôm sure you‚Äôd all love to know what was said at that meeting.¬†¬† The elder asked Dad how he viewed God and Dad answered ‚ÄúAs a strict disciplinarian.‚ÄĚ The elder immediately said to Dad ‚ÄúWell, He‚Äôs not, He‚Äôs a loving Father.‚ÄĚ

Mum distinctly recalls Dad coming in the front door from that visit and having a golden arch over his head, telling her immediately that something amazing had happened in the meeting.

Dad then enjoyed a year free of depression.

During that year, In 1988, Dad trained for and then participated in the ‚ÄėBike for Bibles‚Äô ride, from Townsville to Brisbane.¬† Cycling 2000kms over 2wks.

While Dad was on the ride, he began to experience cramping in both his foot and his little finger.  After returning from the ride, Dad was seen by his GP, who suspected Parkinsons disease and promptly sent him off to a Neurologist where it was devastatingly confirmed.   He was 38yrs old.

We had moved a couple of times within Bracken Ridge, but when a workmate showed Dad an advertisement for house and land packages at Petrie, we made the move there in 1990.

The distance to travel to work had become difficult for Dad, so he took an early retirement due to ill health.  His super payout allowed Mum & Dad to pay off the new house.

Karen blessed Dad with his first grandchild in 1992.  This gorgeous baby girl brought a lot of extra fun and enjoyment into our house at Petrie.

Dad had begun to have a distinctive walk with the cramped foot which continued until his DBS surgery in 2007.

Around the time of Dad’s first grandchild’s arrival, we began attending what was then Lawnton Baptist Church.  Mum & Dad took on the job as cleaners there, which was a job they held for 10yrs.  During this time, Dad also worked in the church office, dealing with computer issues, which was a big specialty interest of his.

He was well known as being able to fix any computer problem, and we grew up being the first of our friends to have a computer in the house and the latest games etc.

Two sons-in law and a daughter-in-law came along, followed by a further 13 grandchildren and 2 great grandchildren to date.

In 2001, a move to a townhouse at Lawnton was needed due to Dad no longer being able to maintain a yard etc.  He also was no longer able to work at the church.  Mum & Dad also made the move to this Bray Park Reformed church, where they’ve been members ever since.

In the early years of Jason & Fiona’s (Yes, Jason married a Fiona.. just to keep things interesting.. ha ha) marriage and family life, Mum & Dad would take yearly visits on the train to spend time with them until the travel became too much for Dad.

The Deep Brain Stimulation surgery had been suggested but dismissed due to the cost involved.  Circumstances came about that allowed the surgery to be performed at no cost at the PA Hospital in 2007.   Dad was a great success story for the surgery, even ending up on the news, jumping for joy with his return to independence.

Dad enjoyed 6months of increased mobility, but then things began to decline again.  By this point, Dad was using a walker, but needed to go to a wheelchair following a bout in hospital and rehab due to a bad UTI & blood infection in 2014.

Dad continued to gradually decline and Mum, as his full time carer began to feel the strain of daily life, resulting in Dad beginning twice weekly respite days at Petrie respite centre.

Dad continued his interest in technology but moved onto the Ipad & Iphone etc.¬† He loved to get the latest ‚ÄėiPad for Seniors‚Äô magazine as soon as it was available, even to the point of annoying the newsagency staff to notify him when it was in.

Christmas Day last year dawned and we received a call from Mum saying that she’d had a funny turn through the night and wouldn’t be coming to Christmas lunch.  Mum had basically had a breakdown due to exhaustion and was unable to care for Dad, We began the process of finding Dad a few weeks of respite for Mum to recover.  We found a spot for him at Beaumont Care at Clontarf.  Karen was due to move to Clontarf at this time also, so it was a huge blessing to find somewhere close to one of us.

Karen & I took Dad to Beaumont care on Jan 4.  Dad was surprisingly ok about going, which did make it a lot easier.   We were very comfortable with the staff from the very beginning which made it so much easier for us to happily leave Dad there.  Dad was clearly comfortable there too, as a few days later, he announced that he would be happy to stay on there permanently.  This was clearly a God thing as Dad had always been very adamant about not going into a home, often being quite fearful of the idea.

Dad, as Dad does, wormed his way into the hearts of staff and residents as the weeks progressed.  He did have a couple of falls, resulting in ambulance trips to hospital, but they weren’t major.

Dad had been suffering from very very bad anxiety for the last few years and would regularly have panic attacks, but never experienced another attack after entering Beaumont.  This was a huge praise point and answer to prayer.

We began to notice quite a bit of decline as the weeks went on.  Dad started wearing a slow release pain patch to make him more comfortable.  Dad was also experiencing disturbing hallucinations and was getting quite agitated at times.  A drug was suggested to help calm him, so a half tablet morning and afternoon began.  We had been warned that starting on this drug would make Dad very drowsy for a few days, but it really made him far drowsier than we liked, so the dosage was dropped to a quarter tablet morning and afternoon.

Dad had begun to say confusing things and also be very different in the evening, often not knowing visitors that came after late afternoon.  Karen would go every day after work, so sadly she experienced some unpleasant visits with Dad which was very upsetting.  Due to the drowsiness, Dad was spending more time in a fallout chair than in his wheelchair.  This was far more comfortable for him, and also better for visitors to be able to see his face, as he was so slumped over when in the wheelchair.

In the two weeks before Dad went Home to The Lord, he was increasingly drowsy and ‚Äėout of it‚Äô.¬† He became more and more unresponsive, but even up to last Thursday evening, you could usually get a nod or shake of head as answer to something.¬† He seemed to almost lose his voice all together in the last two weeks and would try and speak in a very low whisper, but sadly it was almost impossible to understand him.¬† I can only imagine how frustrating that was for him.

He also had begun to experience increased difficulty with swallowing so he was put onto a soft diet and thickened fluids.  His beloved Coke and chocolate was to become very rare.  Thickened Coke is not very appealing.  He also could no longer swallow his tablets, so had started chewing them.. yes, how gross.  Seeing he was chewing them anyway, they decided to start crushing them and would give them to him in apple sauce, yoghurt or anything else they thought to try to help mask the disgusting taste of them.

Dad was never short of visitors while in Beaumont, with friends, family & pastors visiting regularly.  Even with a lockdown that lasted more than a week, we continued to visit and have Dad brought out to the courtyard.    They weren’t keeping us away, that’s for sure.

Last Wednesday, Dad was visibly in pain, bringing his knees up to his chest and covering his head with his hands.¬† We spoke to the RN about this and they suggested upping his pain patch to make him more comfortable.¬† Thankfully the doctor was able to see him that afternoon and wrote up the stronger dose patch which was put on the next morning.¬† We had been warned that the increased does could make him drowsier still so we weren‚Äôt overly surprised to find him quite out it and unresponsive on the Friday.¬† However, we weren‚Äôt quite prepared to have him refuse all food, water and medication.¬† Usually Nick, The RN on for the 3-11pm shift, was successful at getting food, fluids or meds into Dad when he was a bit low, but even when he came on, he couldn‚Äôt get him to take them.¬† He asked Dad if he knew what he was doing by refusing, and what the consequences would be and Dad said ‚Äúdefinitely‚ÄĚ.¬† This showed Dad‚Äôs amazing strength, to make this choice and then proceed to ride through it.

Earlier that day, which was Good Friday, DH & I had been able to watch the live streamed service with Dad which was a really special time.

Karen then came after her church service had finished and she then stayed with Dad until that evening.  I went home for a few hours, but knowing that without food, water or meds, time was short, came back by late afternoon.

Karen & I stayed with Dad into the evening.  A few relatives were called at this point to express the severity of the situation.

When Karen & I arrived back to Dad last Saturday, he was in a very bad way.  His breathing was very laboured which was something we didn’t at all expect.  Speaking to the lovely RN, Susie, she said that we could put nasal prongs on to help with the breathing, but this would prolong the end, which is something Dad didn’t want.  The end of life comfort care began at with a canula put in for different drugs etc.  While Dad had been extremely unresponsive, he was VERY responsive when the canula was put in his belly.  This was really traumatic for us to watch, as was each time they repositioned Dad.  We had some idea of what the end would be like for Dad, but nothing prepared us for how bad it was.

Dad’s oldest sister, and niece were with us for a lot of that last day, which was so comforting.

Karen’s oldest daughter drove 3.5hrs home from holidays in order to be with her beloved Poppy.

Karen’s younger 2 daughters arrived at 5.35pm and we all laid hands on Dad and prayed together soon after they arrived.

At 5.55, Dad took a big breath in and out, his last… and began his eternity in Heaven.

We can only lean on the strength of our Lord as we go through life without him until we meet again.

Our greatest comfort during this time is knowing that we truly had the best Dad we could have ever asked for.  He stood by us and supported us through every high and every low.  He has never let us down or disappointed us.  His taught us about Jesus and His love for us.  He encouraged us to have a personal relationship with our Lord & Saviour.

We can get through this in the FULL knowledge that we will meet again in Glory.

Dad went through more in his 67yrs than anybody should ever have to, but he always did it with a smile and an amazing attitude.  He loved The Lord, he loved his wife, children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren…  and he showed us what it is to trust in The Lord at all times, and to not lean on our own understanding.

Blessings Peeps xox

P.S. ¬†Spoiler alert... ¬†The day following Dad’s passing, I was beyond blessed to receive a vision from The Lord of the moment Dad went home. ¬†I’ll share it with you all very soon as I know you’ll be blessed bigtime to read this. ¬†#Godisgood #allthetime

HS Day 592 – The end of an awesome journey


& so begins my catch up blogs… I have been very lax in getting my thoughts down ‘on paper’ in the last few months, but in my defence, there has been a lot going on. ¬†Hence the several posts that will follow this one. ¬†So, get a cuppa, find a comfy chair, and put the kids in front of a suitably awesome PG movie so you’ll have a good hour and a half of peace and solitude.

During 2016, I started to have lots of things about a local state high school come across my radar, whether it be in person with a friend, a FaceBook post, something in the local paper etc etc. ¬†I didn’t think too much of these things coming up as we do know quite a few kids that go to this school, so I was really encouraged to hear these positive things about a school that years back had quite a bad rep. ¬†It was encouraging to also find out that young adults from our church were heavily involved in chaplaincy programs there.

As more and more things kept pooping up on my ‘radar’, I began to seek The Lord on these issues, originally simply asking why it kept popping up, and then I began asking what it meant (if anything) for our family. ¬†I strongly felt lead to begin looking into the school itself, made a few calls, met with a few parents of kids there. ¬†(Does this sound at all familiar to the beginning of our HS journey ?? ¬†ha ha)

As I have each of the 3yrs we’ve been a HS family, I would ask the kids around the time of the September school hols if they are happy to continue with Distance Education at home, if they’d like to return to mainstream school ¬†(I never wanted to be a HS Mum that MAKES her children stay at home.) ¬†Master 11 had had a particularly rough school year, part of this was because he had some serious eye issues, needing 2 surgeries in July & Nov, but mostly because his older siblings had moved onto online DE curriculum, while he remained on the ACE paces. ¬†Compared to what they were doing, his looked boring, uninteresting and without end. ¬†Now, a quick disclaimer here… I am in no way bagging out the ACE Curriculum as I think it’s great !! ¬†I’m simply relaying HIS feelings about it. ¬†We know a good dozen or so adults who went through their education with predominantly, if not all, ACE curriculum, and they went straight into Uni and onto successful careers. ¬† 2 of them are teachers at the local Christian school. So it would seem ridiculous to not see the ACE curriculum for what it is, a full & comprehensive educational material.

So, I wasn’t at all surprised that Master 11 was the first to put his hand up… and rather quickly at that. ¬†There were some health issues to deal with first though, but that’s for another blog post.

Master 14 was quietly interested in the idea, but wasn’t at all committed to the decision until a good two months later. ¬†Miss 15 was barely interested at all. ¬†I was fine with that as I was only going to do what was best for each child. ¬† If that meant one back at school and two still at home, that was fine with me.

We went along to our first meeting with the school guidance counsellor. ¬†DH wasn’t able to attend, so I dear friend of mine came along, which I was very grateful for. ¬†To get her thoughts and opinion on the school, the staff, their practises etc etc was a blessing beyond measure !! ¬†Coz, guess what… sadly, some people are so willing to paint a negative light on a decision you are considering… whether it be to homeschool, return to school, sell your house, have a baby (I’m not), follow the Lord’s leading in changing churches, etc etc etc. ¬†With this in mind, it’s always GREAT to have a good Godly friend to walk alongside you. ¬†Their wisdom will help you through the fog of negativity and/or confusion !! Even better.. (if you’ve read my previous post re getting yourself into a Lioness Pride, you’ll see this coming), have yourself a PRIDE of warrior sisters…. it’ll help you so much in any decision making process, as well as just life in general !!


We headed home from the school that day with the enrolment forms (and copious amount of other forms etc) with 2 children completely on board with going back to school. ¬†Master 14 was now quite excited about it, which would end up building up to an almost annoying excitement which involved a comment nearly every day that went something like “Why do we need school holidays? Why can’t we do back to school now?” ¬†I simply said to him that the many students that have been in mainstream school all year would strongly disagree with him.

Miss 15 was getting more and more interested in going back to school, but still had concerns about the distraction element. ¬†She loves that she can work uninterrupted and without having to deal with break time social dramas. ¬† ¬†She eventually made the decision to go back to school, knowing that she needs to be very conscious of making good friendship choices and also have good time management skills. ¬†She sadly decided to not continue dance in 2017 in order to be able to knuckle down to her schoolwork. ¬†I’m not really sure how I feel about this decision as for one thing, she’s very good at it, and two, we all need an outlet to keep us balanced. ¬† I’m hoping the walk to and from school each day will be enough physical activity in the beginning, and maybe once she’s found her rhythm, she’ll also find time for another interest etc. ¬†Having said all that, YAY for her commitment to her long-term goal of being a Paediatric Nurse !!

Now, speaking of walking to school… that in itself was another clink in the chain towards going back to school. ¬†To walk to this school from where we live now would be approx 45mins, if not more. ¬†While we do have a school bus stop right at the top of our street, I wasn’t keen on the kids getting the bus. ¬†This is more about me being far away from the school if I was needed for some reason, then me having any issue with them getting the school bus. ¬†So began the more intense hunt for a house close to the school and the shops (for me as I don’t drive, and for the kids to get to work.) ¬†We had already been looking around at houses for months, as well as slowly prepping our house for sale, as we wanted to downsize, so it was simply intensified.


We had almost given up finding anything when this lovely home became available.  It was super close to the shops and school.  We went through the motions, but sadly those motions included finding a nice termite infestation in the walls of this lovely home.  While it was super upsetting at the time, it became apparent that God had His hand over the whole thing all along, as just as this contact went belly up, an even greater house came on the market. It is a little further from the shops and school, but still very walkable, and all in all is a much more suitable home for us.

Our house went on the market as soon as we’d signed on the first home we found (the bug eaten one), but as yet we haven’t had a buyer put in an offer. ¬†Lots of interest though, so that is promising. ¬†I would have loved to have moved by start of school but even if we can’t, we know that God has it all worked out and we trust in His plans !!!!

While all this was going on, we continued with our interviews at the school, as each child needed a seperate enrolment interview with their respective year level HOD. ¬†All 3 of the kids were getting really excited about going back to school, while Mum was a little (ok, a lot) teary at the idea of sending them off each day and not having them at home. ¬†We bought uniforms and ticked all relevant boxes for what needed to be done prior to commencing school. (well, except for stationary supplies… I’m still to do that job.)

Master 11, going into High school, was able to attend a ‘High school for a day’ orientation. ¬†It involved an assembly/sorting of classes and a tour of the school, both of which parents came along to. ¬†Once those were done, the parents headed home and our little grade 7s were left to finish their full day at school. ¬†At the end of the day, there was much excitement about new friends, new teachers and new routines. ¬†He was a little anxious about knowing where he needed to be and when, but I assured him he’ll pick it up in the first week.

Master 14 had been beyond pleased with the subject selection he had access to.  He seriously was blown away by the subjects he had available to him.  (Hence his daily excitement and anticipation to return to school.) Each of the kids know people in their respective year level, so none of them are heading back to school with any nervousness re friendships.  I think this is a HUGE blessing for them heading into a new school !!

Also, personally knowing the President of the P & C has set this Mumma’s concerns to rest. ¬†Being a Christian family heading into a secular school, I have my concerns if I let my mind run away with them… but The Lord has constantly been laying on my heart we are to be Salt & Light to the world. ¬†This has also been a talking point with all 3 kids, that they are going into this school as a follower of Christ. They have a responsibility that needs to be taken seriously. ¬†I’m so pleased to be able to have confidence that all 3 have taken this onboard.


There are such exciting times ahead !!! ¬†Still some uncertainty with our house not being sold etc, but as I’ve already said, we TRUST in the will of The Lord !!!

Here is a  couple of verses that have been particularly helpful to me thoughout this time

Psalm 77:19  РYour road led by a pathway through the sea Рa pathway no-one knew was there.

& of course…… Proverbs 3 Trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. ¬†In all your ways acknowledge Him and will make your paths straight.¬†

And so….. ¬†Day 592 was our last day as a Homeschooling family. ¬†This day was sad in lots of ways, but also very exciting. We have learnt so so much in these 3yrs being together basically full-time !! ¬†We haven’t always gotten it right.. and we still have so much to learn about ourselves and each other, but while our schooling situation may be changing, our TEACHER has not !!! ¬†We continue to lean on HIS teachings, and strive to live by HIS ways.

Blessing Peeps !!  xox











We’re ALL made in HIS image !!¬†

So, I’m blogging from bed tonight. . this is new for me. What’s been on my mind today? ¬†The journey of struggle to always, 100% of the time, think the absolute best of others… no matter what they’ve done or said to you. ¬†

It can be a challenge. .. but after growing through some friends & family struggles in the last few years, ¬†I’m well able to see the fruitful results of thinking the best of others during & after conflict. ¬†To clarify.. ..I’m referring to the results within me. ¬† When logic tells you this, ¬†that or the other, ¬†but you’re able to see past that and see the likeness of the image of God in all, you know He has done a great work within your heart. ¬† It’s also been really interesting to notice the reactions of others to my approach when it comes to how I think of others I’ve been thru conflict with. ¬† There’s been no resolution. .. and yet I am able to believe the best of them. … even when it defies logic. ¬† I, like many of us, kind of have two different types of friends/family. .. those walking with The Lord.. and those that aren’t. ¬† Prodominently, my friends & family who are walking with Him know that I am making the BEST choices, even when it may not seem the logical choice (the decision you’d make in the flesh). ¬†The flipside of the coin is a large perecent of my unbelieving friends/family think I’m a nutcase when I refuse to think badly of others.

I listen to myself at times and know that it seems crazy.. illogical. . and maybe a tad niave to look past nastiness to the God given gifts & talents that I know are beneath any words said out of hurt, pain, confusion. …. or outright miscommunication, but when you’re witnessed years of a beautiful, kind heart… when you have those memories. .. it’s easy to cling to those, ¬†rather than the negative.

Now.. ¬†is it like a switch where you conplete your growth journey and you never struggle to always see the best? ¬†Um, NO !! I so wish it was. .. but sadly, there’s an enemy that loves to pull us down at every opportunity. ¬†We can know that we need to hold our shield high.. but sometimes LIFE gets hectic, stressful… or generally just full-on… It’s at those times that we may get a little distracted and have an arrow make contact. ¬†Solution – Sword of the Spirit. ¬†KNOW IT… MEMORIZE IT… SPEAK IT OUT !! & do that even when you don’t feel like doing it. ¬†Actually. . do it ESPECIALLY when you don’t feel like doing it.

Seems simple right. .. well it looks like it on paper.. but it does take strength, ¬†perserverence, patience, persistence, determination . .. and lots of other strong qualities. ¬†Good thing for us God gave us all those things… we just have to use them. ¬† They’re kinda like muscels at times (yes, I did need to bring a fitness element into this. ¬†Ha ha). .. if you use them a lot, they work well… get a little slothful, and it’ll be a tad more difficult for you.

Isaiah 40:29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
Maybe the conflict I’ve experienced will never be repaired… who knows. . But I know it can only be beneficial to my heart for me¬†to have this mindset.

Philippians 4 : 8 – Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.

You know what else is imperative. .. seeking & then listening to Godly counsel. ¬†It takes humility, ¬†but it’s something I’ve grown to know is extremely important. ¬† Because guess what, ¬†we can’t always trust our own emotions. ¬† Another interest thing. .. God doesn’t just use our believing friends to impart wisdom to us. ¬† I’ve recieved fresh insight and wise cousel on many occasions from my unsaved friends & family.

Proverbs 1 : 7 РThe fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction.
Well, It’s now morning. . And no, ¬†I didn’t blog all night. … but I do like to write and then sit on something thru the night. . Just in case I’ve used my own fleshy thoughts and logic and not discerned correctly what it is The Lord has for me to publish.

Enjoy this new day peeps !! Seek His counsel in all things. .. and see others as He sees them. .. in every situation. ¬†At work today, ¬†with your family, ¬†at school, ¬†out socializing… whatever it might be, look for the best in all !! It might not always be easy, ¬†but man, ¬†you’ll feel better in yourself then giving into what our emotions sometimes say we have ‘the right’ to feel. ¬† We all know what’s best. . It’s the enemy that comes in and feeds us the Genesis 3 : 1 line. . “Did He really say…” As it says, he’s crafty. ¬†He often doesn’t outright tell us things, ¬†but makes us question the sound judgement we have within us from The Lord.

Don’t listen to Him !!

Soak in the scriptures. . And use those swords to tell the enemy where to go when you feel yourself thinking badly of others,  or maybe justifying poor decisions.

And as Lisa Bevere says in ‘Girls with Sword’… STRIKE TRUE !!

Blessings peeps !!

Like a tree planted by the water

Hi all…

God laid a blog post on my heart a few weeks back, but life’s been cray cray busy, emotionally draining and. well, just a tad poopy to be honest. ¬†So, my blog post has been a bunch of notes and dot points on note paper by my Mac ever since then. ¬†Now, tonight, I finally have the time, and emotional capacity, to get it ‘written down’.

Quite often, The Lord gives my blog post during praise & worship time. ¬†This can be quite frustrating if he decides to give it to me during P & W at church…. ¬†I have to try and remember it all… ¬†I really should start taking my journal to church with me for this very reason.

The title of tonight’s blog may have given it away, but it was Psalm 1 that was given to me that particular evening.

Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers; but his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night.  He is like a tree planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither.  In all that he does, he prospers.  The wicked are not so, but are like chaff that the wind drives away.  Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous;  for the Lord knows the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked will perish.

I always find it interesting that the Lord gives me different things for my blogs… sometimes pictures, sometimes songs, sometimes a direct message. ¬†I was given this Psalm, and then I ‘happened’ to search up a ‘Chat with Priscilla Shirer’ to watch one evening in the week following having been given the Psalm, and low and behold, her guests were Mark & Melanie Hall. ¬†Mark Hall is the lead singer of Casting Crowns. ¬†I have a few of theirs albums, but must say I didn’t know much about them. ¬†Their story is amazing. ¬†The band is completely made up of Pastors. ¬†I’d strongly encourage you to google them and read their testimony. ¬†Powerful stuff !

Anyway, I had strangely (nothing like this is ‘strange’, it’s just God ‘doing his thing’ when we don’t realise He’s doing it) purchased the ‘Thrive’ album the previous week and had listened to it enough times to be quite interested in what Mark had to say about it. ¬†Surprise, surprise… it’s based on Psalm 1. ¬†I guess if I’d put some deep thought into it, I would have realised that after listening to the ‘Thrive’¬†track, but I mostly listen to it while working out, so I’m not always putting 100% attention into lyric meaning. ¬†You know, not dropping the weight bar on my face is more significant. ¬†LOL.

The lyrics of ‘Thrive’ go like this :

Here in this worn and weary land Where many a dream has died
Like a tree planted by the water We never will run dry
So living water flowing through, God we thirst for more of You
Fill our hearts and flood our souls With one desire
Just to know You and to make You known ,We lift Your name on High
Shine like the sun made darkness run and hide
We know we were made for so much more Than ordinary lives
It’s time for us to more than just survive…¬†We were made to thrive
Into Your word we’re digging deep¬†To know our Father’s heart
Into the world we’re reaching out¬†To show them who You are
So living water flowing through God we thirst for more of You
Fill our hearts and flood our souls With one desire.

The Believers Bible Commentary tells us this about Psalm 1:3-5 – The man who is separated from sin and separated to the scriptures has all the qualities of a strongly, healthy, fruitful tree. ¬† ¬†Planted by the rivers of water – he has a never-failing supply of nourishment and refreshment. ¬†It¬†brings forth it’s fruit in it’s season ¬†– he displays the graces of The Spirit, and his words and actions are always timely and appropriate. ¬† It’s¬†leaf also shall not wither – his spiritual life is not subject to cyclical changes but it characterised by continuous inner renewal. ¬†As D L Moody puts it, :”All The Lord’s trees are evergreen.” ¬†( I LOVE that, don’t you.)

This kind of man shall prosper in everything he undertakes.  The reason, of course, is that he is living in fellowship with The Lord, and all his service is therefore guided by the Holy Spirit.  The only way to be efficient and successful in the Christian life is to be led by the Spirit of God.  Self-directed activity is an enormous waste of time, money and effort.

The ungodly are not so, that is, they are neither well planted, fruitful, enduring, nor prosperous. ¬†Like chaff, they lack body or substance. ¬†When the storms of life blow, they prove unstable. ¬†a¬†strong¬†wind drives them away. ¬†The ungodly shall not stand in the judgement. They will, of course, appear before God at the judgement of the Great White Throne (Rev 20:11). But the meaning here is that they will have no adequate defence. ¬†In idiomatic language, they won’t have a leg to stand on. ¬†Furthermore, they will never stand¬†in the congregation of the righteous; ¬†they will be forever excluded from company of those who are saved by grace through faith in the Lord Jesus Christ.

(If I haven’t told you before… I LOVE my ‘Believers Bible Commentary’. ¬†I bought it about 4yrs ago now and find it an extremely handy resource. ¬†It is written by William MacDonald and is based on the New King James version. ¬©1995, 1992, 1990, 1989) ¬†And as a bonus for me, it’s LARGE PRINT…. which also makes it a good addition to my weights workout.. LOL.


The cover of the ‘Thrive’ album is so great and tells such a great message, as well as visually depicting Psalm 1. ¬†Digging our roots DEEP in the scriptures, while still reaching OUT into the world. ¬†I’m sure I don’t need to tell you all that having deep roots in the Scriptures make marriage, work, church, friendships…well, basically anything, work BETTER !!!


Getting back to what the commentary says of Psalm 1… I love knowing that I have a NEVER FAILING supply of nourishment and refreshment. ¬†Man, I’ve needed that this year with the ups and downs of the last few months. ¬†Even this past week, Master 11 had major eye surgery. ¬†I actually didn’t even realise quite how major it was until he’d been in theatre 3hrs with no sign of getting that magical phone call saying ‘Your child is in recovery.. you can come in and see him now.” ¬†Thank The Lord, that phone call ended up being the surgeon coming to us after 3hr 10mins in theatre, saying that it had all gone beautifully and our son would soon be in recovery. ¬†It would be another nail biting half an hour before I got the call saying I could come in to recovery to see him. ¬†Apparently he’d been under quite a deep anesthetic due to the length of the surgery and was taking a bit to come out of it. ¬†He gave us some entertaining moments over the next few hours until he was fully awake and with it. ¬†The knowledge that our loving heavenly Father was in that operating room, guiding the hands of the surgeons, greatly comforted me in those stressful last 2hrs in theatre.

I also want to be characterised as having continuous inner renewal.  I certainly know that I thrive for this, by both digging into the Word, and reaching out to others with the gifts and talents the Lord has blessed me with.

Speaking of reaching out to others, I have to take this opportunity to share with you the most beautiful thing that happened in hospital this week, the morning following the surgery. ¬†I stayed in overnight with Master 11 of course, and when we were sitting having breakfast (well, he was having breakfast, I was stealing off his plate.), he nonchalantly says to me “I’m thinking after breakfast, I’m going to go and pray with each child.” ¬†Seriously, my heart nearly burst. ¬†Due to nurses coming, going through discharge proceedures etc, he only got to pray with one little girl, but oh well, that’s one girl who’s life he touched that morning. ¬† My son is an EVERGREEN….. ¬†love it !!!!

I also love what Psalm 1 says about ‘when the storms of life blow’.. ¬†and that this played out in our life this week. ¬†The storm was hectic… there were other things going in our lives too this week….. ¬†not so great things.. that are way too complicated to go into (future blog post), but while I was tossed around a bit, emotionally, physically…. ¬†because my roots are planted DEEP in the word, and¬†planted by the rivers of water, I was able to power on through it, knowing who I am, and whos I am !!!

I also love these particular lyrics in ‘Thrive’¬†We know we were made for so much more¬†Than ordinary lives..¬†It’s time for us to more than just survive…¬†We were made to thrive.

I know that I don’t want to settle for an ordinary life… I don’t want to ‘just survive’ …I want, and plan to THRIVE !!!

Blessings Peeps  xox

Positioned like a see-saw

I remember sitting under a teaching a few years back about how our posture as a disciple of Jesus Christ should be with one hand stretched upwards to someone in a mentoring capacity.. to someone who is further along in their walk with The Lord than us. Meanwhile, the other arm reaches down, ‘pulling up’, encouraging & discipling someone coming along behind us. ¬†Someone that is a little further back in their walk with The Lord than where we are.

The person you’re reaching up to has a little more life experience than you, so is able to teach and help you through similar situations. ¬†In turn, you can teach & help the one you are encouraging, because of the trials, struggles and victories you have walked through.

I also remember receiving an image about this, back when sitting under that teaching, of one long road with people littered all along it, all at different stages. ¬†I probably should have drawn in it seeing as I wasn’t able to find something that I felt represented it, but this gives you an idea.


When I had this come to mind last night, the Holy Spirit gave me an image of a seesaw, but it wasn’t like one end was completely up and the other completely down…. it’s not normally positioned in that way, and I don’t believe it would be nearly as effective either. ¬†I think the image of a set of scales where one end has a slightly heavier weight onboard than the other shows a more accurate picture of the common situation, but as the ‘weight’ part of the image makes no sense, I think the seesaw is better.


This one is more like it.

The person reaching down needs to have the HUMILITY required to fulfil this role in another’s life, while also having the WISDOM to take on this responsibility.

Something that simple cannot be in the equation is pridefulness !!!

Just because I like definitions, let’s look at some now…

First, a ‘secular’ definition of Humility –the quality of having a modest or low view of one’s importance. ¬†While in essence, this is true, I don’t like it one bit as it doesn’t sit well with me when you consider that we are a temple of The Holy Spirit. ¬†We have the power of Christ within us, so when I consider our ROLE in God’s Kingdom, we certainly do not have a low level of importance. ¬†I guess what it comes down to though is the importance of that role, as opposed to the importance of us as a person. ¬†That’s where the pridefulness can come into it. ¬†If we are prideful about our own importance & think that that importance is ¬†seperate to God, that’s when we will run into trouble.

A biblical definition of Humility ¬†–God says when you are humble, you are free from pride and arrogance. You know that in your flesh you are inadequate, yet you also know who you are in Christ. ¬†I LOVE this !!! ¬†So so true !! Free from pride & arrogance !!

Now for Wisdom…¬†the quality of having experience, knowledge, and good judgement; the quality of being wise.

Not bad…. let’s look at it from a biblical point of view though.

Wisdom begins and ends with the fear of the Lord. It isn‚Äôt a fear of being struck by lightning or fear of being struck dead but it‚Äôs a deep, abiding, holy reverence and respect for the Lord and for His Word, the Bible. The Book of Proverbs has more to say about wisdom than any other book in the Bible. For example in Proverbs 9:10 Solomon, who was the wisest man on earth, at least until Christ came, said that ‚ÄúThe fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is insight.‚ÄĚ Where there is fear, there tends to be obedience and God has said He prefers obedience over sacrifice (1 Sam 15:22; Hosea 6:6). Sometimes obedience comes before understanding and when someone obeys what they know to be true, understanding usually follows. Wisdom begins with reverence for God and a fear for Him and His Word. That‚Äôs where wisdom begins. Where there is no fear of the Lord, there can never be any true wisdom. It‚Äôs just not possible.

Now, both these two traits can be tricky, and not always easy to uphold, especially in weakness during struggle.  It takes real DISCIPLINE to be HUMBLE & use WISDOM  to take the right path when in a struggle or under attack.


Two other words that I really think needs to come into the scenario is COMMITMENT & RESPONSIBILITY !! ¬†We need to be there for our ‘person’ at all times, even at times of our own struggles. ¬†The only way we can do that is by walking closely with The Lord, digging into The Word & being accountable.

As a mentor, your role is to teach and inspire by words and example, so you can come alongside someone in their personal development and learning development using your life, Christian experiences, and education as tools.. You are a role model to someone. This is a precious responsibility that is to be taken seriously, but also enjoyed. You need to be one who is growing in the Lord, and who takes His Word and precepts to heart and to life. Because someone is placing his or her trust as a counselor and teacher in you, you need to be real and growing to do this right. Therefore, you are the one the Lord will use to provide opportunities for spiritual learning, development, and growth.

Matthew 12:36 & 37 tell us … I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, ¬†for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.‚ÄĚ ¬†Words hold power peeps.. in so many ways, so be careful with your words !!!

If The Lord entrusts you with a ‘mentee’ ¬†(that’s probs not actually a word, but you know what I mean) then see it as the privilege that it is, and ENJOY it, but never ignore the commitment and the responsibility that goes along with it.

Oh.. and one last thing…. DO NOT TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THIS RESPONSIBILITY !! ¬†Treat it as the GIFT that it is. ¬†You will grow through every moment as a mentor too… it’s not a one-way deal. ¬†Another thing that has been evident in my walk and I believe I can pass onto others and it be of help, is this… ¬†When God leads you in a different direction… be it towards a different person, or away from a person…. LISTEN TO HIM & ACT ON IT !!

Maybe you will be in a mentor type relationship with someone for a very long time, but often you will not. ¬†People with this need or gifting come in & out of our lives at GOD’S will, not ours !!! ¬†We may be of help, or receive help from someone for a season and that be all God intended for each of our journeys. ¬†When that happens… ¬†seek confirmation from Him.. and then accept & move on, being ever watchful for new doors being opened.

Isn’t it FUN being a child of God !!!!! ¬†Seriously, I LOVE IT !!!! ¬†So much to learn, grow in and become !!!!

Blessings peeps !!!  xox



Life is continuing….

Oh my goodness, if I’d left it another two days, it would have been an entire month between blogs…that’s downright SLACK !!!

So much has been going on.. which does help to explain my slackness in the blogging department.

The highlights are –

  • Baby Boy Lucas is now HOME and powering on like the little warrior he has proven himself to be. ¬†He’s settling in at home, putting on weight, getting to know his big brother, and is having his first immunisations today.

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  • I scored myself a not very pleasant intercostal injury about a month ago and am actually still suffering from that. ¬†However, it IS improving (PRAISE GOD !!) so things ARE on the up & up. ¬†I think I did it because I did either too many sit ups, or did sit ups incorrectly. ¬†I had both an ultrasound and an X-ray on my right side chest/ribs etc but it didn’t show anything. ¬†As a result, I’ve had to change my exercise routine … ¬†for the first two weeks, I couldn’t do ANYTHING. ¬†I am pleased to say though that I must have been doing just enough to keep the weight loss train going as the number has continued to drop slowly each Tuesday morning for my weigh-in.
  • We are now down to only two weeks and two days until we sail far far away across the sea !!! ¬†Our renewed passports finally arrived so this is a relief. ¬†I cannot even tell you how excited & humbled I am to know that I get to enjoy two weeks ‘off the job’. ¬†No cleaning, cooking, washing…. ¬†Thank you Jesus !!!
  • Sadly there is ups and downs (more downs) ¬†in family over the last few weeks that look to be continuing for a while. ¬†However, God is teaching me a lot throughout. ¬†It’s so easy to see someone’s actions as selfishness on the surface, but when looking deeper, you can expose emotional issues that deserve additional care. ¬†Also, sadly, it is human nature to ‘arc up’ when someone does something to upset you, when in fact, we’ve been commissioned to Love thy neighbour, repay bad with GOOD, do all we can to expand God’s Kingdom, and most importantly, be the LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS !!!
  • DH is really enjoying having his aeroplane and being able to go up to the airfield whenever he can and go for a fly IN HIS OWN PLANE. ¬†He’s been waiting a very long time for this and is LOVING IT !! ¬†He’s also made a nice group of friends up there, which is just as much a part of the whole ‘scene’ he’s been wanting to be apart of for so long. They sit around with their drinks and discuss all things ‘planes’. ¬†I’m really really happy for him. ¬†& as you can see, the kids are enjoying it too.


  • The biggest homeschool excursion (78 people) I have ever organised went off without a hitch (or any drownings)… Woot Woot !!


  • Miss 14’s dance comps all went very well. ¬†Now to enjoy the break before it all starts again in Feb 2016.
  • The 2016 homeschool journey has been decided on which is also a weight off my shoulders. ¬†The older two kiddos are currently working through diagnostic testing for next year and are doing very well with them.

So there you go, that basically brings you up to speed, to a degree, on our lives.

Even amongst the ups and downs of ‘life’ I love how God makes ‘lessons’ out of all situations, good & bad. ¬†I’ve also been reading Jefferson Bethke’s Jesus>Religion which is really opening up my view on things.

Blessings xox

Being in good company

I’m gonna be honest. .¬† I’m struggling tonight.¬†
I want to be walking the right path.. I NEED to be walking the right path as I have little eyes watching me and little ears listening to me.  (and some big eyes & ears too)
However these very encouraging facts don’t make the path any easier.¬† The bumps are still there,¬† the ‘stones’ are still thrown, the misconceptions of me by others are still there.¬†
I solidly believe that I not only witness to my children through things that I say,¬† but possibly even more so by things that I DON’T.¬† When I’m abused by a family member and I don’t respond in like tone or with harsh words.¬† When I’m treated like a ‘goodie-two-shoes’ but choose to stay silent and not ‘defend myself’.
When I’m outright verbally attacked,¬† but refuse to take the bait and retaliate. .. they see that.¬†¬† & you know what else they see… the frustration on the person’s face when I won’t lower myself to their level.¬†
Isn’t it interesting (& frustrating) that we can KNOW that God’s opinion is the only one that matters and yet the darts fired by others still hurt.  I often wish that I was impervious to these comments etc but I also know that I am taught a lesson through everything single dig at me,  every single comment made. .. and every single not-so-subtle insult on Facebook. 
I actually started this blog last night but the fact that I stopped part way through turned out to be a blessing in itself as I actually needed to be reminded of my own words when dealing with someone today.  
Praise The Lord it was actually a really great day today spent at the beach with Miss 14 & niece 17 (well great day except for the sunburnt back of the legs. .. what on earth).  Lots of time to think and talk to Jesus while the girls were out paddle boarding.  Something about being at the beach (I think it’s actually in any natural setting) that gets me closer to God.


I am constantly blown away of late with the relevance of each mornings devotion and how it has been speaking directly into current situations & struggles. If you don’t do a morning devotion,  I’d really encourage you to as it is just the BEST way to start the day. 
So, getting back to my title. .. with all that I’ve been dealing with in days of late… I am comforted knowing that Jesus was hated,  he was ridiculed,  he was treated as a fool… so when I feel treated like this. . I know I’m in good company. 
Blessings peeps xox

Taking a biblical stance and sticking to it :0)

So, before I delve in, I want to make it clear that this is an ongoing journey for me… and will be until the day Christ returns or calls me home. ¬†I strive to live by and stand by biblical principals in all facets of life, but I’m human and sometimes I let my human-ness get in the way. ¬†That’s when I need to draw near to The Lord, repent and get back on track.

So, what is on my heart today? ¬†The LGBT community and what our attitude as Christ followers needs to be. ¬†Now, don’t get me wrong… ¬†I don’t know that I’m 100% correct on where I’m choosing to go with this, but it’s how I feel lead by The Lord to go forward, so I’m going to share it with you all.


Now, I¬†wholeheartedly¬†believe that we, as Christ followers, are called to love everyone in the LGBT community, as well as they’re supporters. ¬†That is our job.. to show God’s love to our neighbours. ¬†We are also called to save the lost… well, actually, technically, we are called to obedience… the Holy Spirit does the saving. ¬†

These are some of the scriptures that I’ll be looking at. ¬†I’m using all KJV references as that’s the closest to original text, unless you are fluent in Greek or Latin (which I’m not).

Leviticus 18:22, Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination.

Leviticus 20:13,  If a man also lie with mankind, as he lieth with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination: they shall surely be put to death; their blood shall be upon them.

1 Corinthians 6:9-10, Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind,

10 Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God.

Romans 1:26-28,  For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature:

27 And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence of their error which was meet.

28 And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;

Now, before anyone tells me I have taken verses out of biblical or historical context, I haven’t. ¬†I have read the surrounding scriptures also as well as taken into consideration the historical and cultural context. ¬†The Leviticus passages are GOD speaking directly to Moses, no translation over thousands of years as people love to claim of other scripture references about this topic. ¬†I also realise that some of the references speak to temple prostitutes and worship of the fertility gods. ¬†I still believe God issues the same guidelines for all of us. ¬†

I’m not simply taking a stand on homosexuality, but also the other references in these passages… ¬†of nakedness with close family members, people using mediums etc, worshipping other Gods, laying with your husband during menstruation, ¬†cursing your Father or Mother, Adultery, laying with animals.. and more. ¬†I’m not saying I get this all right, but I can’t stand by one thing in the scriptures and not stand by another. ¬†That screams Hypocrite. ¬†It also can be a very slippery slope to try and justify one thing when there are a whole pile of other things on the list too. ¬† For example, if one were to argue that homosexuals are not in sin when they act on their sexual desires, are they also saying that idolatry is ok, are they saying that adultery is ok.. or thieves, drunks or swindlers?

I don’t have to simply try and put myself in the place of family members of those that identify as one of LGBT…. I actually AM in that position. ¬†(I have never even tried to put myself in the place of the actual people who identify as these as I really believe we cannot understand their standpoint at all.. we can imagine, but I don’t think we can ever truly understand their feelings, struggles, pains etc etc.). ¬†If one of my children for example were to come to us in years to come and say that they were gay, I would certainly hope that I would have no trouble in the slightest continuing to love them AS THEY WERE… ¬†but that doesn’t mean I would accept their choice. ¬†The definition of acceptance is ‘the process or fact of being received as adequate, valid or suitable.’ ¬†These words scream ‘settling’ to me. ¬†I don’t want a suitable parter for my daughter, I want THE partner that God had put aside for her all along. ¬†I certainly don’t want adequate… that just screams ‘this one will do’. ¬†Um, NO… ¬†I want the BEST partners for my children. ¬† So, what I’m saying is… I would love them as I always have, I would love their partner if there was to be one.. but you bet your butt I’d be praying every waking hour for them to be freed from that bondage. ¬†I would be fighting for them in the spiritual realm. ¬†I would hand them over to God because I KNOW HE is one only one who can heal them.

The family member I spoke of above identifies as Transgender. ¬†To clarify, this family member is not a believer, so I cannot even begin to expect them to uphold Godly standards. ¬†That would be beyond unrealistic. ¬†We can only continue to pray for them and to extend a loving hand to them in the hope that we will be the best Godly example that we can be and that if a time comes where they feel convicted of their sin, then they have someone they can go to straight away, with no fear of ridicule or judgement. ¬† ¬†As far as acceptance goes.. and man, isn’t that word thrown around a lot lately… ¬†I will accept the person, but I WILL NOT accept the sin…. I love them far too much for that. ¬† We are never defined by our sin, so therefore I won’t treat them according to their sin. ¬†They are God’s purchased possession, created in His image, and deserve to be treated as such.


Blessings xox

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